Fun Challenges

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my wrist with a bracelet saying "Fun Challenges"


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It’s a fun challenge. I keep forgetting. It’s a fun challenge!

I’m trying to figure out what to do with my life and I keep getting frustrated when I can’t find the answer instead of being curiously open to finding one. Playfully searching.

Niquey, remember. It’s all smoke! It’s all going to pass away. My frustrations will not get me closer to the answer; just closer to stress and burnout.

Relax! So, I don’t know what I’m doing. This is great! This gives me something to work towards: figure out what I need/want to do.

Don’t get frustrated! Don’t waste time fretting about the “feelings” you’re having! Relax!

It’s all going away soon. Before you know it, it will be a long-gone memory you will be looking back on and laughing about.

Keep your eyes on God. As long as you keep Him involved, Bob Marley’s words will ring true: 

Every little thing is gonna be alright!

Sooo, I don’t know what I’m doing. What I need to focus on, cut, ignore, go after. Just stop and breathe with God a moment. It’s another fun challenge to take on. Something that makes life fun. An opportunity to enjoy the moment and make a memory.

In the end, we’re going to die. 

The money will go to the government, some descendant or their cat, or be lost to idiocy.

The debt will be forgotten.

The knowledge will carry on in your soul, but half of it will be useless and irrelevant to your new existence (most likely I don’t know).

Marriage won’t even be a thing according to Jesus (still sad about that but okay I guess).

Most of the things that are soooo important right now will be of no importance in the end or in a few years or even in a few days!

So stop caring already!!

I mean it! Write down the cares and let them go.

Right now!

Retire mom and dad. Stop caring. God cares more than me about my parents.

Get more money to pay bills. Stop caring. God cares more than me about my obligations.

Grow a business. Stop caring. God cares more than me about my dreams.

Marry that guy. Stop caring. God cares more than me about my desires.

Knowing the right thing to do. Stop caring. God cares more than me about my path.

So what’s left for me to do?

Talk to God.

Enjoy life.

Make God-led, God-fed decisions.


So that was a pep talk for myself when I was feeling a bit lost and confused internally. I feel better now and am also doing a bit of a dopamine detox (without really calling it that) as of this writing. Just need to silence the external voices for a bit. Give my type-A, anal-retentive, overthinking brain a rest. ;P

Also, I’m not so sold on that last conclusion, but I don’t know how to articulate it. So I’ll put a pin in that for next time.


~Niquey

I am just a girl seeking the best life. I'm into languages. I currently speak English (native), Spanish, Chinese, Italian, and Japanese. I am a Software Engineering Master's student. I am a digital portrait artist. I work as a Dental Assistant and ESL teacher. I run various YouTube channels. And I love Jesus Christ!

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